I don’t write many personal posts on this blog and some of you have said you’d like to know a little more. I think this is probably on the second of a personal nature out of about 85 articles so far. With that said, hear you go…
I came across the Carly Simon video by means of Proceed At Your Own Risk, a blog by Richard who was just recently knocked out of the 2007 Gay Bloggies contest by QueerClick. I had heard the song before but I’ve never seen the video so I decided to watch.
While listening to this fun song I drifted into a reminiscing state – thinking about some of my ex’s. While I’m not your typical player by any means I have been around the block a time or two and fell off the bridge a love more than once. I’ve been in some very deeply connected relationships. I’ve been married and have two wonderful kids who I love and respect very much. Sometimes I have wondered if paternal bonds are the only ones that can have the stability through rough times to last a lifetime.
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One of my more recent ex’s meant the world to me, probably more than any other person before him. But for complicated reasons it didn’t work out. I had literally already given up my then current life for this guy. As a result the breakup was heart breaking and wrenching. Even through all of that it’s obvious we still have some feelings for each other as we’ve tried to rekindle a friendship several times but neither of us really makes a committed effort at the same time. I think its out of fear more than anything else. At least if I think about it logically that’s the way it is from my perspective. Who knows maybe someday we’ll be best friends – he is a great guy after all or else I wouldn’t have fallen in love with him. But I must admit he’s probably the most vain out of everyone, heh.. So with all due respect and a bit of humor (I hope, ’cause he just may read this some day, lol) I dedicate this video to him mostly but also a few others out there.
I’m with someone else now who I have grown to love immensely. As a bonus he is very easy on the eyes but he’s very down to earth. Out of the men (and women) I’ve been involved with he is probably the best looking by far but he’s also the least vain of any of them. The guy is hot and he knows it. But you’d never realize that unless you know his inner soul. In other words it just doesn’t go to his head. He’s perfect in that way and many others – love you Jake.
I was just told by the great guy (who I just spoke the world of) in the previous paragraph that I should add a disclaimer. So here goes. Disclaimer – I’ve been known to have a vain moment or two on occasion (haha). Ok, so he really didn’t think the “on occasion” part was entirely accurate. But seriously, I’m not that vain. Really, I promise.
Lika Starr
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